Randomness about me.

Dancing by myself is fun!

Definitely a lover. There are at least five to ten people I say I love a week.

Feet are one of the worst things ever. I hate them.

Fire alarms make me nervous.

Flying is not enjoyable at all. I get all sick and have to take medicine.

I don’t like wearing pants.

I try way too hard to fit in and have everyone like me.

My feet turn in when I walk. People have tried to get me to stop but I have walked that way my whole life and I doubt I will stop.

Piggy banks are super cute. I think I might start collecting them.

Reeses pieces are better than M&Ms.

I think he might fly here. Maybe. Hopefully.

All I had to do was call him cute..
and ask how long it takes to fly from there to here.
and tell him I wasn’t wearing pants/shorts to sleep.
and tell him I am good at helping to make a bed warm.

He said it takes 2 hours to drive. I asked him how long it takes to fly. He said it would take 50 minutes.

I asked a million more questions about flying. I may have asked how easy it would be to land if something on the plane broke. He laughed at me. I told him to just answer my question. While still laughing at me he answered. He checked the number of little airports between BSU and ISU. I didn’t even have to ask about that. There are 10. We could also land in a field or on a street if there was a problem. He told me there wouldn’t be any problems.Finally he told me that he teaches people how to fly so I don’t need to worry. That does make me feel better.If he is allowed teach people how to fly then he has to be good right? He also said that the first time we do it, we will do it on a nice day. By not a nice day he doesn’t mean like stormy or anything. He just meant like cloudy and stuff. I think he told me about waiting to do it until a nice day because then I will be less nervous about it.

& Yes. I know I ask kind of ridiculous questions. Why? Because flying makes me nervous and I get sick when flying. Why am I still going to fly in a small plane? Because he said he would let me fly it and I think it would be kind of neat. Obviously I won’t be doing that the first time, but maybe another time I will want to. Plus, knowing that a guy is going to maybe fly here and then fly me back to where he goes to school just so I can visit him for the weekend? AWESOME!! That definitely makes me like him a bit more. Also, I would be lying if I said my flying in a little plane had nothing to do with him. It does.

I like to ask him random questions a lot. Every time we talk/text I probably ask at least 5. I usually ask what he is wearing. He asked what I was wearing. I was only wearing a shirt and underwear. (I prefer to not wear pants. That is one good thing about having my own room at school. I’m actually not wearing pants while writing this.) I told him I was wearing shorts earlier. I told him that a lot of times I wear shorts as pajamas. He told me that it wasn’t fair because he couldn’t see. I told him if I was there (at his apartment) he would be able to see. (I’m thinking the more I say things like this the easier it will be to get him to fly here and fly me there. Ha.)

We were on the phone kind of late. At the end of our conversation we were both laying in bed talking. We said goodnight and he made some comment about me being in only a shirt. I told him to have fun with his pillow. At some point I told him I was a very good sleep buddy. He told me he had a cold side of the bed. I told him I was good at warming up a bed. He wanted to know how. I told him I couldn’t tell him because then if I did go there then it wouldn’t be a surprise. Then he told me we could always just warm up the same side of the bed. (I kind of love our conversations. So very entertaining.) He told me he was tired. He sounded tired. It was adorable. I told him he sounded cute. He told me I need to go there. Yay! That makes me happy.

I’m pretty sure him flying here and then flying me back there for a weekend is going to happen. It hasn’t been a definate thing yet, but it does seem like he really wants me to visit. {SQUEAK} x a million. He has mentioned that he wants me to visit too many times for it to not happen. We both like each other and have awesome, interesting, flirty (obviously), great conversations. {squeak} I like being in like. Especially when someone seems to like me back. Plus, if it doesn’t happen I will probably like cry. Okay, not really, but it would suck.

How awesome would it be if he flew here and flew me there just so I could visit for a weekend?? Seriously? Flying makes me nervous, but a guy who would be willing to do that so that I could visit them is kind of totally amazing and perfect and awesome!

Also, if other people are right and he is only doing this because he wants to date me? I don’t really care and it’s working. Besides, he already told me the more we talk the more attracted he is to me.. Yay!

I love liking someone.

I don’t think before I speak

Conversation I had with B on the phone:

Me: Me
B: Guy I like/Friend/Dated in highschool
C: apartmentmate person of B also a guy.

Me: If you fly the plane bad then maybe I will lose all of my bikinis
B: So if I fly bad you will lose your clothes and go in the hot tub naked?
C (in backround): What?!?
B (to C): Ya your heard that right.
Me: I meant that I would lose my bikinis and have to wear a one piece. The better you fly though the less I will wear in the hot tub.

B can fly little planes. We were talking about how I think it is safer to fly in the summer. I told him if he flies good with me in the winter then my hot tub would be usable during spring break.

I do think that if I agreed to go naked in my hot tub with him I could maybe definately get him to fly here and fly me there. He kind of perked up when he said the “If I fly bad you will go in hot tub naked” thing. Sigh. 21 year old guys are kind of easy. They’re fun to play with.

And once again, I wonder what my mom would say if she knew I told B “The better you fly a plane the less I will wear in the hot tub”.

There may have been a few other times when I have done something similar to this. I can’t remember the specifics, but I know it was something about shorts and skirts and which is better/shorter.

Crush, Crush, Crush.

After saying/writing/thinking that word for a while it starts to sound kind of weird. I think that about most words actually. I text kind of a lot and sometimes when I spell words I think that they look funny and that they are spelled incorrectly or aren’t words, but they are.

Anyway..

Back to the point of this post…

Having a crush is nice. Has it made me write about a million posts about him and possibly make me sound all weird and stuff? Possibly. Probably. Most likely. Oh well. What has led me to write this new post about him? Some texts message/phone conversations we have are good and fun and make me like him very much. Right now I haven’t asked him any questions about what is happening in April in like a week. Is it bothering me still that I don’t know? Yes. Am I hoping that by having awesome conversations with him it will make him want to tell me? Yes.

Part of the text message conversation we had a few days ago I said that I wanted to think of other things to say that I can maybe make you do. He wanted to know what sort of things I might try to make him do. I asked for suggestions and he said he didn’t have any, but he thought I would probably think of something. I told him that I could probably think of better things if I was in Terre Haute (where he goes to school). When I said that he told me that I tend to make him wish that we went to the same school. When I asked why he told me because I can’t act on the comments I make. Yay! Why is that awesome? Because the only way I will be going to the thing in April there is if he comes here (flying maybe?) and brings me back there. Basically him wishing we went to the same school = me feeling like my chances of the April thing happening (or at least finding out what it is) go up.

I may have told him that I wasn’t sure of what I wanted to think of to maybe make him do, but that’s a lie. I just need to become likeable enough to make the April thing maybe possibly hopefully happen (or be told about it). We have very interesting conversations sometimes so hopefully I am able to do it. Eek. I have a few months to make this happen so hopefully it does. {fingers crossed}

Guess who I have the same spring break as? B. When I was on the phone with him we looked our breaks up and they are the same. He sounded kind of meh about it and when I was like whats wrong he said that he was disappointed. I asked why and he said because that meant he had to do something with me. He said that he thought it would be nice to have the week and not do anything with me. I told him that it was fine if he didn’t want to see me and sounded slightly pouty. He told me he was joking. He likes to bug me I think. I’m not sure why. Since I know we will be doing something during spring break that means another time to try to convince him that he should tell me about the April thing. Sigh. I don’t even care about going anymore. I just want to know what it is.

*Maybe I should invite him over to go in my hot tub. I do have a new bikini. I wonder what my mom would think if she knew I was thinking about using my stepdads birthday present (the hot tub) as a way to get something from a guy. Ha.

**Also, B if today is the one day you decide to stumble upon this and read it here is something you should know: If you mention to me that you know I am trying to get you to tell me/ask me about April then there will be no going in my hot tub and seeing my new bikini. There will maybe be going in my hot tub and seeing my one piece swimsuit and there will be you definately trying a veggir burger sometime and there will also be you trying guacamole from the good mexican restaurant by my house. : )

Dear B you are the bestest person ever right now.

(or: I don’t think he will read this and I feel wierd actually teling him this stuff on the phone.)

Seriously. You are so incredibly nice. You could totally be a typical awful guy, but you aren’t. I’m guessing you probably already know that the reason I would want to go on a date with you is because you are the first guy after I broke up with J that I had a good conversation and stuff with. It is totally a rebound thing. However, don’t think that the rebound thing is the only reason I like talking to you and want to hang out with you and stuff. I really do want to be friends. Plus, I would like to fly a plane. Although looking at  pictures on facebook the plane looks really small. Kind of scary. Also, I am really glad you talked some about the whole date thing. I will admit that I do like you a lot and if you weren’t such a good person you would totally be a rebound guy and it would probably be really awful. I think between me missing J and thinking about like everything we have talked about and how our conversations are awesome i’m a bit in like with you. You’re adorable and fun and I really like talking to you and even though you don’t think I say my own thoughts on things much I like knowing that I can talk to you about pretty much anything. Even though i’m not comfortable saying things I like knowing that if I did say anything to you that you won’t like be all judgemental about it. I will try to get better about it. I know I worry too much about what other people are going to think about what I say or do, but please know that I do feel comfortable talking to you and I like talking to you and if we never hang out as anything other than just friends and only friends that is perfectly fine by me. Plus, like you said yesterday we are probably the most opposite people ever, but maybe opposites really do attract. Ha. There is something I want to talk to you about, but I don’t know if I can. J promised he wouldn’t tell anyone about it and he only did that because I kind of freaked out about it. You already think I am wierd about my way of thinking about this so to describe it any more to you just makes me nervous and I don’t think I can since J said he wouldn’t. We have already kind of discussed this, but I haven’t said very much it has mostly been you. I know you probably think the reason I don’t want to talk about it is because I worry too much about what you will think, but I really am nervous about what J would think if I told you. I would have to tell him I told you. I wish I could talk to like everyone about this. I really feel like I am the only person who feels this way and because of it I will probably not be able to keep a boyfriend for a very long time. Also, some of the things you told me kind of surprised me, but even though you told me some stuff I still feel weird telling you some stuff. Anyways…. You are a really really good person and friend and are super awesome. Why do you have to be so awesome?

*I kind of wish he actually read this so I don’t have to say any of this on the phone. I am much more comfortable writing here than talking on the phone or in person. This would be part of that whole i’m worried about what people will think of me.